Leading lady

All my life I have been a thinker. The crazy thing about being a thinker is that it leaves room for Satan to play on your thoughts. The more I thought, the more negative the thoughts would become. Granted, I suffered really badly with depression growing up and always felt unworthy to be living; my thoughts never gave me much peace. When I turned 30, I thought I had them under control, to later realize that my thoughts controlled more of me than I of it. When I turned 40, I realized that my thoughts were infecting so many people around me that I new I had to do something about it. I could have went to counseling. I could have done a whole lot of things, but would it have changed anything trying to do it on my own? Nope. I started taking my relationship with God more seriously; in turn, He provided me peace of mind. We will never get it right all of the time, but what I do know is that God has forever changed my life, and Satan has no room in my mind ever again. I am now the leading lady of my mind; with God’s help!

With opened eyes

Have you ever, in a long term relationship, friendship or even closeness of a family member, seen them differently? I mean, not necessarily in a bad way, but you actually see them in their greatness but also see their flaws? Having a clearer understanding of who they actually are? In life it’s easy to want someone to be who you want them to be. It is naturally in us to selfishly want people to see things through our eyes and then act accordingly. Once you take the time to learn more about yourself, you will start to see people differently. I am a very spiritual person and I truly believe that grace and love works hand in hand. You have to give people the same grace that is given to you in order to receive the things you always want from them. Not control. Not impatience. Not manipulation. But simply understanding that like you, they are not perfect, and may do the same things you may do to them or to someone else. Maybe not intentionally, but it happens. Make sure that you focus more on the positive things about them than their flaws. You will always be able to dictate how any situation with anyone you encounter will turn out. Love and grace will change your life, but more importantly, the people you impact!

Persistence

As I’m on this journey of rediscovery, I’m asking myself questions like, what if I never did my research to buy my house? Or what if I didn’t walk miles a week just to work at the job I’m at? Or if everytime I fell I never got back up? These reflections gives me the drive to want to know more about myself. I’m truly looking forward to the journey I’m about to take in rediscovery and fulfillment.

Walk by Faith

A lot of things happen around you and to you that you just don’t understand. You wonder why God would place certain people in your life. Why do bad things happen. Or even wonder why you are wondering why. I have come to understand that you have to walk by faith in order to get the answers you really need out of life. Don’t give up. It will get better.

The shift

As you get older you want to make sure that your thoughts are right. You want to make sure you are intentional in all that you do and for good reasons. You want to have good people around you and always have peace. But there will always be those times when you are at your lowest, or people make you feel unimportant or undervalued. You have to remember that you do matter. You are important. You are valued. Those that make you feel like you aren’t is their loss and not yours. Keep being you and you will be blessed beyond measure!

The world we live in

As I watch everything that’s going on around the world, I am inspired to want more for myself in this life. I am looking into things that will generate multiple streams of income so that when I do die, I can leave something behind for my kids and grandkids. So many people passing away have encouraged me to do more in my life.

I see so much happening that I never seen when I was growing up. When I was growing up we could leave our front doors open with them unlocked. Same with the vehicles. However, today, you have to have security in your vehicles, cameras and alarm systems. Most of everything you see on TV is sex related, whereas, when I was growing up, tv was censored. I’m not one to hold to the past, but I can’t help to compare the difference. I just need change and I’m looking forward to it.

Pacing yourself for greatness

It is so much going on in the world that it makes me do more self evaluation. It it easy to conform but what would it be like to not conform to this world? What if there was more humbleness? More love? More respect? Morals and values. Dignity and compassion. I believe that if we come to understand that everything that is going on is way beyond our understanding, then maybe lessons can be learned and not resisted. But who knows. Time is really going to tell if the choices we have made were right or wrong. Love is power!

In my thoughts

As I’m sitting here getting ready for bed, the idea of having a New Years resolution seems so informal. Vague. Unintentional. I mean, how many of us made resolutions, started out strong, and as the year went on, it started fading away. I am making a choice to pick one thing every year that I can stick with throughout the whole year. It’s easy to make several resolutions but just one a year can maybe start a riple effect and I can start adding more as time goes on. I believe self care is really important, so that’s my “resolution” for next year. I still can’t believe we are getting ready to come into a new year…. I pray it be even better than this year!

New journey

So I wanted to try something different that I would enjoy and possibly gain followers. I’m a very private person and don’t like people in my business, however, I felt lead to start sharing my life journey with everyone in hope to inspire, encourage and be relatable. I’ve never done a blog before so I thought this would be really cool. When I was in middle school: decades ago, I loved writing. I felt like I was a good story teller. This is right up my alley.

I am in a transition in my life, trying to find my purpose. I have achieved goals I set out for myself, but I’m ready to discover new things, try new things, and check off things on my bucket list. I really enjoy traveling, so I plan to do a lot more of it next year. 2022. WOW!!!! Time is really flying. I hope that by sharing my life journey, it will inspire those that can relate to be more open about wanting to know what their true purpose is.